Monday, November 26, 2012

Stepping Forward

Mixed emotions.

That's how I feel when I think back on my few weeks at college. There were good times. I met some cool people, and I learned a lot in such a short space of time. The memories make me sad, though, wishing things hadn't turned out this way.

So it makes sense that now, on the verge of another life-changing decision, I'm hesitating a little bit.

On my dresser is an acceptance letter from a Bible college, the same one my brother attends. I got it a few days ago.

But I haven't sent my reply yet.

Though the classes I'd take there wouldn't be towards a writing degree, they would grow my knowledge of the Bible and its Author. I could get through some college and learn how to handle all the work. I'd have time to think about my writing plans. It all makes sense.

But I am afraid.

I don't want to stay here working fast food, though I'll admit that I've learned quite a bit in that environment too. I have to take a step forward.

But I'm not positive it's the right step.

In the midst of all this wondering and second-guessing, I know what I have to do. I have to pray some more, and then make up my mind. Once and for all.

Tonight. Tonight I'll have a talk with God. And if He wills, I'll have my answer.

I want to move forward.

Have you ever been afraid of a decision you had to make?


  1. yay, what a great new blog! I will be praying for you as you make this life-changing decision. God will lead your steps, He just often only sheds light on the few steps in front of us. Rarely does he show us the ten year plan (that seems like it would be nice, but we wouldn't learn to depend on Him).

  2. Emily,
    Do you feel this is God's direction or your will for "normal" path for someone your age? My suggestion is write down all your questions and doubts and then write answers and biblical insight.
    Whenever I have had a big decision in life that came with a lot of questions and doubts then I knew I needed to seek others opinions and guidance. If I couldn’t move forward with the decision, without doubt, then I knew I had to either put it on hold or not move forward with it. When I have went forward in doubt it never turned out right for me. I have learned, for me, that is God’s way of saying not now or not My plan.
    Truely listen to what you are hearing not to what you want to hear.

  3. Thanks for the encouragement and the advice! I'll let you know my decision soon. :-)