Eyes closed. Brow furrowed. Trying to find words past the haze of exhaustion, fear, and confusion that obscure my thoughts, even from myself.
Do you ever feel like you've been distracted from what you believe? Do you feel the need to re-learn everything, study every word of Scripture, pray deepest prayers to remember exactly what it is you're doing in life?
It's like a good friend you haven't talked to in a long time. You knew her once. You know you're still friends, and you still like her. But maybe you've forgotten how to talk freely to her. Forgotten her favorite foods and which movies she hates.
That's how I feel about my faith. I believe it. I love God. I talk to Him. I read my Bible and try to serve and obey Him. Genuinely.
But ... I've been distracted lately. Divided in heart. I've forgotten how much he hates some sins and how much He loves His children.
Eww. Sin is ugly. Including my own. My lack of devotion of late is not a pretty sight.
So ... I hope I'm alone. That you haven't let life distract you from what matters most. Have you?
Please pray for me; pray with me.
Am I alone? Or is someone else here too? Maybe not in any "huge" sin ... Just focused on self more than God? Can I pray for you? Will you pray for me?
Consistent growth doesn't happen when we're alone.